One of the most damaging false conclusions we come to as little girls growing up in a patriarchal world is that safety is found in subservience, meaning we are loved, admired, and supported the most when we are being small, silent, self-sacrificing, and not rocking the boat.
For many, this is a very deep-seated, unconscious belief in the background, one we may not even be conscious of. We may have watched our mothers, grandmothers, and aunts embody this belief both overtly and covertly and internalized this mindset to be the safest route to being seen as good, accepted, lovable, and supported in life.
So how do we step into more sovereignty in our lives?
As little girls, we may have been punished, humiliated, withdrawn from, or dismissed when we displayed sovereignty in moments, such as when we expressed independence, said no to something, disagreed with others or when we simply felt naturally confident and unashamed.
Due to these past experiences, we may be holding fears about what could happen to us if we stepped into more sovereignty, empowerment, and unapologetic self-ownership. These fears are nothing to be ashamed of, as they are based on real, lived experiences of being painfully punished for expressions of our sovereignty in the past.
In a nutshell, sovereignty does not feel safe to the inner child due to her history of familial and cultural conditioning, and left unaddressed, this old conditioning causes the inner child to unconsciously sabotage our adult goals and needs.
This is partly why we may shy away from expressing sovereignty as adult women, as the echoes of these past painful memories still live in our subconscious mind, causing the inner child to be fearful about any potential risk of repeating that pain.